Maybe good ideas

I think I am really digging the idea of posting lyrics at the start of every blog.
The thing about me is,
Im so very much in love with music.
Ha well my dear reader I bet you hear that a lot (or in this case read)
But its true.
Music is my emotion.
I find it amazing when a song comes on and in just 3 minutes,
the artist that wrote the song was able to see into my heart and bandage my soul.
ok maybe a little lame but last time I checked this is my blog and I can do what I want here : )
So drum roll please.
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ONE-REPUBLIC - STOP AND STARE

This town is colder now, I think it's sick of us
It's time to make our move, I'm shaking off the rust
I've got my heart set on anywhere but here
I'm staring down myself, counting up the years
Steady hands, just take the wheel...
And every glance is killing me Time to make one last appeal... for the life I lead

Stop and stare

I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be, oh
Stop and stare
You start to wonder why you're here not there
And you'd give anything to get what's fair
But fair ain't what you really need
Oh, can you see what I see
They're trying to come back, all my senses push
Untie the weight bags, I never thought I could...
Steady feet, don't fail me now
Gonna run till you can't walk
Something pulls my focus out
And I'm standing down...
Stop and stareI think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be, oh
Stop and stare

you start to wonder why you're here not there And you'd give anything to get what's fair But fair ain't what you really need Oh, you don't need What you need, what you need... Stop and stare I think I'm moving but I go nowhere Yeah I know that everyone gets scared But I've become what I can't be Oh, do you see what I see.

So its 1 in the morning and I am loosing my energy!
This may call for some more coffee YUMM!!!
I still have several more loads of laundry left before
I start to feel like im getting something done.
Ive not been able to laze around the last few days.
I have to many things on my mind all the time.
Honestley, im hiding my emotions!
I am pretty sad right now.
And I think that cleaning helps me to not think.
My sister is in the hospital and im going to see
her tomorrow (i guess this is today now)
And its just really hard to see her
It makes me so sad that she feels like she has nothing
else left for her.
That she would try and take her life.

All I have been doing is obsessed over everything.
Walking around in her room.
Reading every comment/letter she has ever sent me.
And reading the note she left.
I really mean THE FINAL NOTE that was meant to
be read if she died
Even when I speak to her she sounds so different.
She sounds so sad, and it breaks me.

I just hope that she can work on herself and she
can be happy again.
I love my sister so much.