So the weekend is over already and I'm not happy about it at all. I feel sick and my body is sore. I'm really not looking forward to working tomorrow. I think my chair at work is going to kill me!!
So this weekend i was not very productive! Mostly because Ive been feeling sick. Home life really sucks right now. Im always fighting with Josh. Its because of all the stress in this house. So right now my sister and her boyfriend live with us, and i make more then enough money to pay the bills and live happy. But they need responsibility too. Me and Sarah were talking and im going over how much she has to pay and i told them i didn't add thing up right and that the amount that they owe is a bit more then what i told them. I was not asking for them to pay more i was letting them know that next month is going to be different. I was in mid sentence and Sarah storms out of the room.
What really upset me is that I do pay all the bills and make sure everyone has all their needs met, and i feel like no one sees me. like no one cares that i hold all there lives together. With out me they would all be lost. I cant even get my sister to hear me out. I guess the good news is that everyone is working now. Josh found a job a few weeks ago, and so far that is working out for him. Sarah is at McDonald, and Dustin is working 4 part time jobs. So its not that they dont have the money to pitch in it just they want to do other stuff with the money. Maybe that is why im so hurt. Im to busy paying for everyone and working all the time that i dont get to do fun stuff.
This got me thinking, what are then going to do if i die in some freak accident. What if im gone next month, next week, or even tomorrow. Life is so fragile you never know when it will end. what will be left when im gone. Who will take care of my sister then. I truly feel that she has burned most of her bridges. I know if im gone josh wont keep her in this house. frankly because he cant afford the rent or to feed everyone.
I guess asides from that im not so bad. My 1 year wedding anniversary is in 6 days! Josh has some plans for us to go out. He wont tell me what were doing yet but im still looking foward to it. I love him and he is very sweet to me (most days) haha
I love my family so here are some pictures
So this weekend i was not very productive! Mostly because Ive been feeling sick. Home life really sucks right now. Im always fighting with Josh. Its because of all the stress in this house. So right now my sister and her boyfriend live with us, and i make more then enough money to pay the bills and live happy. But they need responsibility too. Me and Sarah were talking and im going over how much she has to pay and i told them i didn't add thing up right and that the amount that they owe is a bit more then what i told them. I was not asking for them to pay more i was letting them know that next month is going to be different. I was in mid sentence and Sarah storms out of the room.
What really upset me is that I do pay all the bills and make sure everyone has all their needs met, and i feel like no one sees me. like no one cares that i hold all there lives together. With out me they would all be lost. I cant even get my sister to hear me out. I guess the good news is that everyone is working now. Josh found a job a few weeks ago, and so far that is working out for him. Sarah is at McDonald, and Dustin is working 4 part time jobs. So its not that they dont have the money to pitch in it just they want to do other stuff with the money. Maybe that is why im so hurt. Im to busy paying for everyone and working all the time that i dont get to do fun stuff.
This got me thinking, what are then going to do if i die in some freak accident. What if im gone next month, next week, or even tomorrow. Life is so fragile you never know when it will end. what will be left when im gone. Who will take care of my sister then. I truly feel that she has burned most of her bridges. I know if im gone josh wont keep her in this house. frankly because he cant afford the rent or to feed everyone.
I guess asides from that im not so bad. My 1 year wedding anniversary is in 6 days! Josh has some plans for us to go out. He wont tell me what were doing yet but im still looking foward to it. I love him and he is very sweet to me (most days) haha
I love my family so here are some pictures
THIS IS SARAH
JOSH AND MY JULIET
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